Blimey, 2023 has been a whirlwind and a mixed bag. When I look back at my 2023 Goals, on paper we have achieved everything we set out to do. I wanted to do x3 pleasure rides on Tissy and complete Estrid’s Novice qualifications, both a big fat tick!

In reality 2024 had some pretty high highs but was a mentally tough year for me. There is no concrete reason why I struggled with my mental health this year, nothing really big and bad happened, logically I had so much to be grateful for but my head really struggled to keep above the water. But, with support, I’ve come out the other side and looking back on 2023 I have grown and learnt so much.

We said goodbye to Roo at the start of Spring, financially a decision that needed to be made but he found a wonderful home and I am very grateful that I got the chance to know him and take him through his Novice qualifications.

I jumped out of my comfort zone professionally taking a role as medical lead for a few weeks in Las Vegas at the Air Force trials and Dan took excellent care of the horses while I was away.

I had been thinking about switching to a trailer and tow vehicle for a while to cut down the cost of paying for a lorry and a car but then the lorry decided to need a new engine the morning of Estrid’s first 40km, so we never made it to the ride and the lorry went to the garage. I decided to repair the lorry and buy a tow vehicle, which so far has been a great decision.

We went on a horsey holiday and Estrid did her first cross country jumps and gallop on the beach. Estrid then made it to all her planned rides and despite concerns over making the final heart rate we passed every one and she upgraded to Open by the summer. I toyed with an end of season 80km but skin issues put a stop to riding altogether for August and September so she just had her yearly holiday a bit earlier than planned.

Tissy and I went to some great pleasure rides and the icing on the cake of 2023 was getting to go to Man V Horse and coming over the finish line in our first ever racing finish, we still didn’t beat man despite our best efforts though.

We’ve branched out into other horsey activities with groundwork clinics, cross country hire, dressage and jumping practice and actually these have been the most fun I’ve had with my horses in a long time. My passion and my main focus will be Endurance for years to come I’m sure but I do also want to do more of this stuff, not put all my eggs in the endurance goals basket and just enjoy my time trying new things and having different experiences.

It was possibly a little optimistic after one show jumping lesson to go out and hire a show jumping arena but in the name of getting Estrid to as many different experiences as possible over winter I found myself in the middle of a lovely arena filled with coloured poles that were off the floor!!

Now this wasn’t my plan A, plan A was to be at a dressage competition but it got cancelled, again. Plan A was to do flatwork and dressage until February and then try some jumping clinics and clear round competitions in March. I wanted a good flatwork foundation and to get our basics up to scratch before leaving the ground.

But, with no dressage to attend and a slot available at a jumping arena only 10mins drive from the yard I thought, f**k it lets just go. I picked a handful of jumps to put down to 40cm (that’s basically a raised pole right) and thought we’d start with poles and then do a few jumps if she was happy.

Estrid actually loved it and she jumped some of them really well. There’s lots not to like about our session, my position, her frame, some of my set ups were far from ideal for her to jump straight, however, there’s also lots to like, we enjoyed ourselves, she focused, it was a great workout (she was super sweaty) and it’s another positive experience under her belt.

I’m actually now very excited to go to some jumping clinics and get some lessons as I think it might be something we could do more regularly, but I will focus a little more on our flatwork before we do too many take-offs.

Of course Estrid would choose the only day of the year that I had no chance of getting her off the yard to need a vet. Let me set the scene…I was filming a nice little walk to the yard and feed the ponies in the snow vlog. I had to walk to the yard due to snow making the lane inaccessible, when it snows or is very icy I always give my horses a very sloppy warm mash to ensure they are hydrated and to replace the forage they are missing due to lack of grass. They have a small portion of this mash in their feed everyday so it’s not new to them when they need extra.

This was the second time I had ventured to the yard that day as I had been up early to put out some haylage once I realised it had snowed. Estrid starts to eat her mash and then starts spitting it out….very unlike her, we actually laughed at her. Our laughter soon turned to ‘is she ok’, ‘something isn’t right’ as she proceeded to wretch/cough whilst wandering around us…not to panic, I’ve seen choke before, they usually resolve without input, we just have to wait it out. Her neck has gone solid and she’s obviously uncomfortable but she’s breathing and there’s nothing coming out her nose.

10minutes later she starts staggering around, pawing the ground, convulsing on her feet…..maybe it’s not choke, maybe it’s colic? There is too much snow to get her in the trailer and take her to the vet hospital so do I call the vet or do I wait? My logical brain says wait, I’ve witnessed two poops in the 10mins I thought she was choking for, and there are more signs for choke than colic, don’t panic.

Then she staggers and lies down, but she get’s straight back up, she’s still breathing even if she doesn’t look comfortable, she does the same a second time but less controlled, she then collapses like a ton of bricks head and everything to the ground, lets out a loud short breath and then doesn’t breath again for about 25s, but it felt like 15mins. Ok, now I’m out of my depth, I don’t know what this is and I call the vet. We get Estrid up and take her down to the yard.

The poor vet has to park up at the nearest accessible road and walk down the steep hill to the yard. I run up to meet her and help carry her stuff, while Dan takes Estrid to the stable, which we’ve just borrowed another liveries bedding to make a massive shavings bed incase she collapses again.

We get there and although distressed Estrid appears to be absolutely fine!!!!! Normal vitals, lots of stress poops because she doesn’t like being in the stable and swallowing fine. I have never been more relieved/mildly irritated that I made a vet come out in this weather and hike to the yard for her to not even show a tiny symptom.

Because Estrid was winding herself up so much and we discussed that it was most likely choke and Estrid was just being particularly dramatic about it we decided to put her back out in the field, the vet stayed and watched her for a while and Estrid just carried on about her day. I even pointed out to the vet the 3 snow angels Estrid had made in the field when she went down, just to reassure her I wasn’t nuts!

When she fell he 3rd time I genuinely thought she was going to die, and I’m not a panicky dramatic person, especially when it comes to anything medical. What we can now establish is that Estrid could be up for an Oscar for that performance!

I had an amazing time at my first ever pole clinic with Estrid, I can’t wait to get back out and about doing similar things as it was so enjoyable. Estrid really surprised me with her enthusiasm over the poles.

Thank you to the Heart of England EGB group for organising it and Kingswood equestrian for hosting. Guy was great with Estrid, knowing that this was her first time and we couldn’t have had two better horses in our group as they were both very experienced and very relaxed, so didn’t react while Estrid was spooking dramatically at her shadow!

She managed to complete all the drills, even if it wasn’t very refined and I was so proud of her attitude to the whole outing.

After a summer off I was very excited to take Estrid to an Endurance training ride about an hour away. The Endurance GB dates for rides didn’t fit in with any of my free weekends so I decided to go with Sport Endurance. We had 16km planned and our main aim was just to get her used to going out and about again.

She has definitely regressed in the relaxed at venues department, the shakes and sweats are back, she whinnies at anything that moves, I can physically hear her heart beat and her eyes are out on stalks BUT on the plus side she was still very easy to tack up and an absolute joy out on course, she did settle a teeny tiny bit at the end too.

The course was very pretty and quite urban but they had a few issues with marking and then the route being obstructed, so although thanks to my map reading skills I was never actually lost, I couldn’t find an alternative route to continue the correct course, so I doubled back and did a loop of bridleway around the park that was showing on my GPS instead. I still got 16km in and Estrid was a star, being passed, passing, leaving horses, meeting umbrellas, dogs and pushchairs, she really is lovely to ride.

I will try and get her out in the trailer as much as possible to combat those venue nerves, it’s not until we’re ontop of them will I be confident to do a vet gated ride with her, so fingers crossed for a productive off-season.

I could not remember for the life of me whether I clipped Estrid last year or not. Turns out I did, this year I took a little more off and didn’t leave the girth area, she was immaculately behaved so I was super impressed with her.

Although we’re doing more traditional equestrian activities over winter I still went for an endurance clip although I went a bit higher than I meant to, leaving more of the hamstrings exposed than I wanted….but hey, it’ll grow back right!

How does everyone approach training for a specific dressage test? I’d love to hear some ideas, tips and tricks. I decided I’d go for a whole-part-whole approach. So I learnt the test on paper first then I thought I’d run Estrid through it without any schooling and film it to see where we’re at. Then I can break it down into skills/parts and focus my training on them before putting it all back together the week before our competition.

Ironically my competition is actually Intro C now but it won’t have done us any harm to have a go at Intro A and I’ve only spent one training session on it. Looking at them, I think that C might actually be easier as the 10m half circles in working trot in Intro A were actually quite tight and tricky! They share the same fundamentals with working trot, medium walk, free walk on a long rein. Intro A also has a serpentine and two 10m circles with a give of the inside rein.

I’m pretty sure that schooling the foundations are probably usually required before entering and training for dressage, but having a competition to go to gives me focus and having a test to focus on gives my training purpose and direction so actually I see it more of a training exercise in itself rather than getting competition ready.

At this point Estrid can slow down, go faster (but not canter to a leg command), go slower, stop, start and turn. As my dressage rider friend put it we’re completing the actions without quality and that’s 100% ok with me at the moment, I want to complete the movements, be able to do the tasks and then we can bring in the quality, starting with rhythm and then onto suppleness.

Having looked back through our first test run our main focus for now will be bringing the core up and lengthening through her back and to try and get a bigger difference between our medium walk and free walk head carriage.

I have very optimistically planned so much fun stuff for the off-season. I would really like to compete in the Endurance GB Winter league, where you get points for your extra-curricular activities, but the likelihood of me remembering my form to be signed by the instructor for jump clinics, or to take to a training ride, or for a secretary to sign at a dressage competition is nill. I wonder if anyone else is put off by the actual form and whether there could be a digitalised way of getting the signatures or proving that you have attended? Anyway, I’m going to try and remember but I just know that it’s unlikely.

Estrid’s back appears to still be ok after 3 weeks of training, there are a couple of bumps with dry skin, about the size of the ball on the end of a pin but there’s no soreness and they seem to be reducing so we shall continue to monitor and carry on with our training schedule for the time being.

She has come back into training full of enthusiasm which is very encouraging but we have regressed in our travel and venue calmness. She’s back to being sweaty and shaky on our first trip out in the trailer since August. Understandable, and less extreme than at the start of the year, so I’m confident we will soon conquer the venue anxiety ready for the 2024 season.

Most importantly we’re both enjoying being back in the saddle. I have even had an impromptu jumping lesson (which I didn’t film), because someone else at the yard dropped out of the clinic, and it was the most fun. Even though she had only been back in work 3 weeks, she’s never even been ridden over poles in an arena and certainly never been over a showjump, the instructor set it to her level and she tried her little heart out without a bead of sweat on her.

It’s that time of year when we have the annual great electric fence move. It’s always absolutely pouring down for this task, probably because one of the prerequisites of the move is that the summer fields are becoming wet and muddy.

I am not the most laid back person in the world, I’m a planner, I like to be efficient and effective…electric fence tape tests my personality traits and resolve on a bi-annual basis when we move field. WHY does it get so twisted when I wound it on and off the reel perfectly!!! Why do the posts look like they’re in a perfectly straight line, spaced equidistantly from one direction and like I put them in blindfolded from the other?

My frustration with getting the most aesthetically pleasing electric fence line aside, I do love the move to the winter field each year. I like hunkering down and prepping for winter. Ordering in my haylage, stocking up on bedding, checking fences and cleaning troughs. Call me crazy but I enjoy the winter.

The next month is definitely the autumn honeymoon phase, where the winter paddocks are lush with grass and the sunsets are all golden against the orange leaves. It’s getting cooler but you don’t look like the Michelin man in 10 layers yet and we’re not fishing ice out of water so it’s easy to have a rosy view of the season, let’s see what I think in February!

I must admit that after 10 weeks of not riding I was starting to feel like I didn’t actually want to, but as soon as I got on Estrid’s back, the grin on my face told me everything. A nice quiet hack around the block and I had a wonderful time. I marveled at the fact that the horse beneath me, who was being so good for her first time ridden in 10 weeks, I trained!

I have so many hopes for the winter and I’m looking forward to new experiences and challenges. I would like to attend a pole clinic, have a flatwork lesson, have a jumping lesson, do a dressage competition and do a clear round showjumping competition. Who knows if we’ll tick those off the list but it’s exciting to try and aim for them and do something entirely different before focusing on our 2024 endurance season and getting that first 80km under our belt.