Well it’s not how it was meant to go, we were eliminated for being out of time at the first vet gate because I (despite having read the rules the week before) forgot you have 15mins to present to the vet instead of the 20mins you have at National. Now first of all, it should not have taken us as long as it did to get to the vet, in an ideal world we’d have never been in this position but we were and it’s entirely on me.
Estrid and I fought our way around our first 40km, neither of us were having fun and with each km I felt like our partnership was cracking a little bit more, it breaks my heart to think about it. I wanted to go at 15kph, statistically the best possible chance I could give her of a successful completion, Estrid wanted to go faster, she got angrier, my riding got uglier, adrenaline was high and she lost her head and I didn’t do anything to change the situation we were in.
We came into vet gate one with a pissed off, high on adrenaline horse that wasn’t thinking straight. I poured too may buckets of water on her, she got cold, her heart rate would settle and then another horse would move or she’d get angry again and then it would shoot up into the 80’s, it took us 9 minutes to present to the vet, at which point she was left alone in the vetting, her eyes went out on stalks, the shaking got worse and our pulse was too high.
I then though lets just chill, stand outside the vetting and take our time, we have one shot and I don’t want to blow it so lets just take all the time we have…I thought we had 20mins. I re-presented at 17mins, we passed the vet and the ground jury walk over to tell me I was out of time… my heart sank, I knew that I’d got it wrong, we only had 15mins to get through the vet gate, so we were eliminated.
I’ve learnt so much, hard lessons that I won’t forget. I should have changed my strategy on the first loop and let Estrid go faster, I should have separated her from the other horses and given her a chance to relax out on course, I should never have poured so much water on her, I shouldn’t have got the rule wrong. But I have a happy healthy horse, I was so grateful to make it to the start line and ride through those FEI flags, we have another opportunity to try again and I am nothing if not resilient and eternally hopeful that we will get there one day.